What better way to end this series than by writing a letter to my present self. When I wrote the first letter titled “Dear Younger Me”, my initial instinct was to write a letter to my future self, but I decided against that. Not because looking to my future and hoping for things isn’t good and necessary, but rather because I am in a place in my life where I need to focus on what is present and current. I want to focus on this season of life and make the most of the patterns in my present life.
First and foremost, I am so proud of you. Words cannot express how grateful I am that you never gave up, and even more importantly, that you continue to persevere through all of the tough times. I am so proud of how much you have grown up. You’ve learned love despite all of the pain you had to endure. You’ve learned that you are a precious person who is loved and chosen. You’ve gained confidence in your words, actions, thoughts, beliefs, and physical body. There is nothing more heartwarming than seeing how you smile at your face and say, “Wow. I am so beautiful. God made me so beautiful.” Because that isn’t being vain, but it’s verbalization of you having learned what love is.
I am so proud of how confident and bold you’ve become, and I know you sometimes regret some of the rather rash decisions you’ve made, but that’s just who you are. And I’m glad that you’ve learned to accept that about yourself. I love how you’re learning more about yourself as time passes. I know how much you hate vague answers and unclear situations, so good for you for asking for clarity and even though it doesn’t always work out the way you imagined, I’m proud that you know how to be assertive and communicate openly and honestly. Keep living life boldly and don’t let other people tell you any other way.
Finally, thank God every single day for how awesome He is, and especially how He constantly reminds us of that, whether through the beautiful sunset or the realizations He sends your way. Like, recently, you’ve learned to genuinely appreciate life in the present and the current season of life. Every time you are reminded of the existing relationships that need work, the pain you have yet to heal from, and the things you love to do, keep them close to your heart. Your relationship with God, and thus the love He helps you feel within yourself, are the most important things right now, so focus on that growth and progress. Don’t compromise your integrity and values for anyone else. Be patient and be joyful in the now. Thank God for teaching you a kind of love you’ve never experienced before.
love,
me
As Written by Lois 