*A reflection upon returning home after three months in Rome. I missed saying 엄마! I missed hearing her come through the door after a long day at work. I missed warm showers. I missed talking with my brother. I missed driving and Costcos and Targets. I missed hearing my dad laugh. I missed my ownContinue reading “엄마 (mom)”
Author Archives: loishlee
Your Grace, Made Perfect in My Weaknesses
*This is the final draft of a testimony I had the blessed opportunity to share at Cru Fall Retreat 2024. Many thanks to my friends who supported me and prayed with me through the writing of this. And all glory to God who used me to speak to many people that night. After I knewContinue reading “Your Grace, Made Perfect in My Weaknesses”
Listening in the Silence
Oh, how deeply I was wounded. Oh, how much it hurt all the more when I looked to the heavens for solace when I called out to the God I had sought so earnestly and familiarly since my days of youth and I was met with a chill through my bones. Silence? From a GodContinue reading “Listening in the Silence”
Who Am I, but Yours?
Written on May 27, 2024. I heard a loud voice from above calling out names. I recognized some of them. Some were people at my school. Others were from my church. But I started walking away because I knew for a fact that my name would not be called. I knew for a fact thatContinue reading “Who Am I, but Yours?”
wholly, sincerely, with all my heart
Written on December 14, 2023. This morning, I was making myself lunch and I saw our box of instant coffee mix. It caught my eye because of some writing on it. It was in Korean so I strained my brain to read each character; it read, “Expiration date passed! Do not eat!” It was clearContinue reading “wholly, sincerely, with all my heart”
Dear Me
What better way to end this series than by writing a letter to my present self. When I wrote the first letter titled “Dear Younger Me”, my initial instinct was to write a letter to my future self, but I decided against that. Not because looking to my future and hoping for things isn’t goodContinue reading “Dear Me”
Getting Over It
I wish I never met you. Because then I wouldn’t have to try so hard to forget you. To forget the fantasy I created to try to keep you. And the crushing reality of who you actually are when I realized you loved to take advantage of me. You made me feel like I wasContinue reading “Getting Over It”
Backspace
I love you. I miss you. I want to talk to you. I wish you knew how much I loved you. I wish we were still together. I hate you. I don’t want to see you. I hate the way you lie. I miss who I used to be. I wish we never were. I’mContinue reading “Backspace”
Insatiable
Why are we “never satisfied” Constantly seeking more And why is enough is never truly enough. We live in a glass box, One that is clear, so if we blink, we might not realize we are trapped, But also just slightly dirty that we can, on most days, feel like what is in front IsContinue reading “Insatiable”
An Itch to Scratch
Why do you doubt every idea you have? Why do you waver over every character you type? Why do you draw X’s over your itches? Why don’t you ever just scratch until you draw blood? Because it’s hard to believe that I’m a writer. Because ‘what if’ I say the wrong thing? Because I don’tContinue reading “An Itch to Scratch”
As Written by Lois 